I hate fandom.
Online fandom at least.
I really think from now on I'm just going to stick to tabletop and tradition D&D style gaming for the most part because there you have to see people face to face and opinions are often overruled by the roll of the dice. Your characters are your characters, so there's no issues of cannon or not, being true to a character is the responsibly of the GM not me.
I mean, I just don't see the point of having to shift through all the petty people who don't LISTEN to other people when they're trying to make a point and just run around with their fingers in their ears because it's the internet and they don't have to be respectful or kind because there's no risk of being punched in the face.
I mean it, I've really had it with fandom. YES this IS about fandomsecrets
post #100, secret number 5. I thought they meant me, I was right. Yazuu was the first canon character I'd ever played, I was younger and less experienced and didn't realize how much drama existed in these RPs yet. But I met some wonderful people, and some AWFUL people, good RPers, just AWFUL people in real life, and I learned a lot. I don't see how that should RUIN Yazuu for anyone who likes the fandom. It's just childish to blame something like that on me.
But it's been coming for a long time, this is really just the last straw. I have my friends who I actually talk to and like, but I'm purging all the CRAP from my time online that I possibly can. Shahni, Brittney, Case, Lauri, Lellian, Piper, and of course everyone from California of course I still care about you and love all of YOU. I'm just tired of the anonymous personalities online that have nothing better to do than harass people.
But really, I've had it. I ALREADY don't want to hear about any new anime or read any new manga. I'm over Japan and any related fandom. I enjoy playing Zelda, Dynasty and Samurai Warriors, Harvest Moon and other games JUST AS THEY ARE. Maybe making up other stuff would be fun, but I'm just going to stick to people like Jacki and Kelly and Nancy who are much more relaxed about things as well.
Even reading fandomsecrets
gives me an ulcer when it's NOT about me. I have a lot of stress going on with working towards my BA in Accounting, dealing with having moved across the country and getting ready to get married. I just don't have the time or HEALTH to do such read it anyways like a masochist.
I mean it. A lot of you DON'T realize how serious it gets because you've never seen me get really really sick over this stuff. But I have PHYSICAL REACTIONS to things that distress me online, on TV, or even in books. It's a serious anxiety problem and I HAVE to take care of my health before I take care of fandom. I'm a little sad that a lot of my talks with certain people are usually only fandom related...but we haven't been talking much recently anyways, and my e-mail is always open if you just want to talk about whatever. But I'm going to let LJ well enough alone for a long time again I think. It's just an unusually powerful source of stress I JUST DON'T NEED.
I check my e-mail, I leave my AIM open, I might check DeviantArt from time to time but really, other than research my love affair with the internet is OVER.